Time is Flying

Eleanor turned 3 today. Hudson just turned one and Quinn is 5! I have no idea how this is all possible. We enrolled Quinn in the lottery for three magnet schools and then crossed our fingers and toes and waited.

We also started to entertain the idea of homeschooling. It started to become something I was very excited about and regardless of the outcome on the magnet schools–was seriously considering. I never expected to feel that way. I actually have been imagining, since the day Quinn was born, what it would be like to drop the kids off at school, head to the gym, SHOWER, get dressed, blog, run a load of laundry, pick up, etc. It all sounded so peaceful and wonderful and I never in a million years expected to be so completely torn.

For every possible argument someone could make to why we shouldn’t home school, I had a counter. At the end of the day–it didn’t matter what a single other person in the world thought about our decision. We knew that our decision had to be what was best for our child and our family.

This week we heard back from the three magnet schools. Quinn was rejected from two and accepted to one. We feel incredibly fortunate to have this opportunity. We attended all three school orientations and walked away feeling pretty excited about one of the schools. This particular school focuses on the arts. We could really picture Quinn flourishing there, and eventually Eleanor and Hudson (thanks to sibling preference!). The ONE school Quinn was accepted into was THAT school.

I still have this nagging feeling that we should home school, but I want to try this. I know that this is going to change things for our family. The little ones are going to miss their big brother. I am going to miss him like crazy. It will be an adjustment and family dynamics will change. We decided that we should snatch this opportunity–it just feels that it was meant to be. We can adjust and reassess down the road and always opt to home school if we feel that it is a better fit.

I’m grateful and blessed beyond measure. I try really hard to step back and see those blessing and to always find the good. While I will miss Quinn, I see so many amazing opportunities for him at this school and am excited to see him flourish. This will give Eleanor and Hudson time to create a special bond, a time for Eleanor to be a leader and a time for me to spend more time with the two of them.

So somehow, today, we celebrated a third birthday and enrolled Quinn in Kindergarten. I actually cried when we received his acceptance letter. I just cannot believe we are here. I will definitely cry on his first day. I’m a big ball of nerves and excitement and every emotion there is. This whole mom thing sure is a tricky gig.